Today is my mom's birthday. Not that it means much or that I even said it out loud to anyone. But it is. I'm sure my mom is milking my refusal to have contact with her. Playing the part of the victim to a tee, but this wasn't what I wanted. I lost something too. I tell myself that many people have lost parents and are living normal happy lives, but it's different with her alive and well and in my siblings lives.